Tapering and reflecting

Tapering and reflecting

In a week and a half, I will be running 250km across the Simpson Desert.

I started training for this event in the last weeks of January. It’s now the end of June. That’s six months that I have lived and breathed this race – the Big Red Run.

This year I was also promoted to a Legal Counsel position. You wouldn’t know it. Despite this pay rise and prestigious job title, I am up to my eye balls in debt. This is largely due to the $2k plus entry fee plus the ever expanding list of mandatory gear. Every pay cycle there has been at least one thing on my shopping list that I’ve needed to get and put away for this epic adventure.

Whilst I’m usually thrifty, mandatory safety gear for a 250km run in the Simpson Desert is not really an area you want to save pennies on, so yes, I am broke.

I catch myself lying to my partner, my family, my friends.

“How much was that new waterproof jacket? Don’t you already have a waterproof jacket?”

“Yes, but that one wasn’t waterproof enough to meet the safety standards. It was on special. A hundred and something…I’m not sure.”

Too much!

Did I also mention that a few weeks ago I did my “warm up” race which was the Kep 75km Ultra Marathon? So yes, that also involved airfare and accomodation. I tried to keep it cheap, but cheap in Perth is filth. I stayed in a shit box the first night. After running for 9.5 hours I decided I was worth more than a shit box. So I cancelled my reservation for that night and booked a four star hotel. Bliss.

I still haven’t looked at my credit card bill after that race.

…and I still haven’t paid off the balance from the spur of the moment Honolu Marathon expense I incurred last December đŸ˜®

So yes, back on point, I am a broke lawyer who spends all her money on running.

I don’t really know what the point is. I was planning on reflecting on the last six months of training, what I have learned blah blah blah, but the truth is, I am tapering and I am grumpy.

This is week two of a three week taper. My body feels like it’s breaking a bit. My feet hurt, my shoulders hurt. I have scar tissue across my collar bones from carrying a weighted pack during my runs for the last six months.

I thought I might be a bit thinner getting to the start line, but I’m the exact same weight – maybe a kilo more, as I was in January.

I don’t really care except I get pissed off when I constantly get those comments “You’re too fat to be a marathon runner.”

Today I had to go get my medical clearance for the Big Red Run. The doctor said “Most marathon runners are skinny.”

I said “I’m not a marathon runner, I’m an ultramarathon runner.” Fuck-tard.

Then I went home and ate a piece of cake. I don’t know why. I wasn’t hungry but it was protest cake. It was “Fuck you dick head I’m going to eat cake and I’m going to run 250km across the fucking desert you arsehole” cake.

I’ve always been passive aggressive.

Anyway, I’ve done enough marathons/ultramarathons to know that this is the low before the high. I never enjoy my tapers. I get phantom pains, I doubt myself, I wonder why the hell I’m doing this.

I think the truth is, I was born to do this. I don’t feel like I have any choice in the matter. When I am running an ultramarathon, I am freer than I could ever be. I am more me than I could ever imagine. I am what and who I want to be. Life is perfect.

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About tashytuffnut

ultramarathon runner, desert runner, trail runner, musician, vegetarian, tattoos, lawyer.

4 responses to “Tapering and reflecting”

  1. LizzyB says :

    You are a strong ultra runner. You are so definitely not fat. Don’t listen to idiots. Surround yourself with supportive people. Your Big Red Run will be such a great experience that the expense etc will seem insignificant in retrospect. Concentrate on the adventure you are about to have.

  2. Nicole Baddeley says :

    Tash, fuck what other people think u have the right attitude and mental stregnth to do anything u want. You are the strongest person i know and i know you can do it. I’d love to see more of your blogs up to the BRR.
    Keep them coming xxx

  3. Amy says :

    You can do this Tash, you are a achiever in everything u do – u will do this and do it in style! Prove all the negative people wrong, including the dr! Take on board all the support u have got and leave all the bad comments on board. Look at all u have tackled and remember by doing this u have beaten a health disorder through natural means not tablets- that’s inspirational for others! Yah for eating the cake, u need a little spoiling. Debt is always there u only live once. Now I better get sponsoring before the eofy hits – I need my tax deduction on top of charity!

  4. Rosy says :

    Haha Tash. Have enjoyed reading this. Good luck for the big run. I will eat protest cake for you tomorrow. Dr Fucktard!

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